To me, every year is another diary that's always had a different story on its every page. There are emotional differences in each when I write on every page, maybe even in every paragraph.

Although there is a saying, if we remember a bad story there, we do not close the book, but we look then continue to the new chapter. I might be those who will never open that book again, what for? I prefer to tear up the page, or maybe burn the book, or I put the book on a chest, I lock it and then throw the key into the deep ocean. Just like what I did before. Well, although not all books.

I am indeed a good reminder. In fact, on every trip that I take, I will always remember how I went through that storm. But if I opened the book and intentionally remembered it, I wouldn't. What for?

To me, life must go on no matter what risks lie ahead. And I am sure, that every step I take, will take me to a better place every step. Yeah! That's my faith! I believe in everything good. I don't want to believe in bad things. I believe that everyone has the power to turn bad things into good. Why not? Are we not God for our selves?

We know best of what we need, we know best of what we want, and we certainly know what we are.

Also .. opening a painful old book will make our vibrations worse. And I do not want that. It was one form of how I love myself. So if I don't allow myself to do stupid things that can inhibit the growth of my spiritual soul, then I will not let even one person hamper my growth. Even if it's my family.

A few days ago I talked with my ex fiance's best friend. I do not blame my ex. I always believe that a relationship whatever form it took, its like a two-wheeled bicycle. If one wheel doesn't work, then the other won't work too. And why? During its trip, the bicycle might run over sharp rocks. And maybe at that time, one of the tires was not strong enough to step on the sharp rocks. Resulting in the wheel not functioning. And if one wheel fails so is the other, right? So that is how it happened.

Do some consider me as a victim of his dishonesty? Ah no ... I don't feel like I'm a victim of anything for what happened to me. Why be a victim? Especially after what I went through during my spiritual journey, it was no longer appropriate for me to consider myself a victim. Let's just say, that my vibration and him, is not the same. That is all!

Well ... that trip had become a book that I closed tightly and put it in a wooden box and I lock it. Later this year, I will throw the key into the deep ocean. No need to look for it anymore, only a few important parts that I will remember as lessons.

I close and lock it, not because the book was worthless. I appreciate every diary that I have every year. I close and lock it because I fell that I have learned enough from the book, and it was time for me to write a new story in a new book. My role may still be the same, I'm still me. What's different might be because I have grown from the lessons that I learned. And certainly, the next character in the new book will be better than all the books that I have put in the chest.

Aren't every human have a beautiful destiny from the Universe? If the results are not yet happy than it means that the story is not yet finished.

Many people say I am too fairytale oriented in looking at life. Who always believes that everything will be beautiful. But I firmly believe in the good of the Universe, that all human beings are destined to be happy. It's just that, sometimes humans themselves choose to be unhappy. They only hope but are reluctant to create their happiness.

My Fairytale might be thought of by others as not being logic. But they did not know that I was one of those who were balanced between their heart and logic. So I can sometimes decide on something that others can't expect. Don't underestimate this Scorpio woman. 😛

Including my decision to end a relationship, I always think of it in heart and logic. Because my intuition also plays a part, but I also must use logic.

Those who are close to me also often assume that my fairytale imagination is not logical. If you want to say, my fairytale is a form of my faith in the Universe. That the Universe always gives us good things. Even though sometimes I still have doubt when I have to face the storms and rains on my journey. But it does not last long. Because I always get instructions from my guardian angel.

Guardian Angel? Hahahaha .. surely many say it's a hallucination. But it's okay. Indeed, not everyone will understand and not necessarily that everyone understands. I know enough to feel that this is right. The important thing is that every decision that I made, I always use my heart and logic.

I'm a fairy tale, but on the other side, I'm very realistic.
So ... will I throw the key that locks the books in the chest? YAH! I don't want to tarnish the next diary with things that I've already learned enough. 2 years I went through it all alone without anyone I can exchange ideas, for me is enough for me to close it. I'll write the next stories more beautifully. Who will help me write those beautiful stories besides my Universe and Guardian Angel? We will see later.

My message to all my friends who reads my blog, don't ever hate your previous life books. Sometimes without us knowing, those books are what make you stronger now, which makes you more courageous to reach your dreams and run new stories. You will not be able to arrive at the new book if you do skip the old books right?

The first or second or third book and so on are equally valuable. But the last book you wrote is your destiny. There is nothing wrong with the first or second or third book because all that has to happen. What should be regretted? There is nothing. Isn't in the next book we can always be better? Hahaha ..