Actually I am not typically cares or understands politics. But in 2017 where there was a case that I found unfair (Ahok's case), I began to care about it. The only thing that makes me want to fight is the humanity aspect that I think is right. My Facebook account immediately changed dramatically at that time. When I usually share things about animals and the environment, is now full of political things.

Well ...  It's true, it's really are entirely not what I used to be. I totally realized that. Even for me, sometimes it's hard to do that. But there is some part of me that is called to act like that. Maybe I am a "Princess" in their eyes. But I'm tired of seeing injustices that's happening in front of my eyes. I have to be the "Queen" as soon as possible. I have to be able to get my people out of this injustice. Should we just sit if there's injustice happening in front of our eyes?? Then how we can be called human that has common sense? Caring in silence is not the solution in my opinion. Well ... even though to trully took the fight to the field it's something that I've never done or might never do.

Being a keyboard warrior can be an alternative for us to join the struggle. Perhaps by giving a writing or thinking that we know, but not hatred or hoax, because that's exactly what we have to fight.

If there's anyone that says that keyboard warriors were criminals or toxic human, I asure you that they did not understand things broadly. They judge to easily, they generalize all the keyboard warriors without  using common sense (speaking for the sake of just speaking). For me, such person doesn't need to be debated. Have mercy because they are like frogs in a shell. They will complain because of injustice but they just keep them self quiet. For what? (For this I am preparing a followup post about Facebook Undercover)

For me defamation or hatred speech equally angered me. How do people whose doing the right thing really have to accept unfair treatment? Is the world so devastated so that it can no longer know which one is the truth?

As per the title of my post this time, I just want to write that the "I" that they all mean, should be  the "I" that present now. Aqila who likes poetry, who likes to read rather than watch, and who like to write. Aqila that they have know as an animal and environmental lovers (especially ANIMALS). Aqila who only gets angry when she sees violence against animals. Aqila who hates everything that is racist. 

Aqila who likes to make all kinds of crafts, likes to cook, and loves painting. Aqila who's happy to sit alone anywhere. Aqila who can always understand about the zodiac, always believes in miracles, and Aqila who has a dream like in a fairy tale world. Aqila who is romantic. Aqila who is always cheerful and forgiving. Maybe that's the things that what the new people don't know about me. But I don't care :p.

Drama Queen? Actually it is not like that, but when I talk about politics that time I'm really angry,  it's not an act. They just don't know me. There is a time for me to be angry so they know, who they are dealing with. There is a time when I had to lower my crown, there is a time when I have to held my crown up high, that is my point.

Keep in mind, all of that is not because I changed. I remain as I were before. I am still the person who cares about animals and the environment. I'm still going to fight for people who are constantly exposing racist issues (whatever their religion, whatever their race). I still prefer to read and write. I'm still a woman who has a dream like in a fairy tale world and I still believe in miracles.

I still like crafts, painting and cooking. I still the Aqila who do not like crowds and prefer to sit alone anywhere when not being together with my lover or my friends or my family. I'm still Aqila who love astrology. Actually, I'm still the same person right? And I'm still Aqila who likes to write love letters for the people she loves (to express my feelings).

But ...

Maybe, what is different might be my way of looking at it and the way I solve the problem. If the first I will not say anything (just pray) when there's injustice against others, now I'm not. If the first I did not dare to speak about it because I'm only playing it save, now, I'm not. If the first I want to live exactly like the story in the fairy tale kingdom, now I need to know that a perfect dream is a dream that's real. A dream can only be achieved if we fight for it. Whatever our dreams, if we only fell asleep on it, there's no point on dreaming it.

If I used to let others arrange my life (parents, for example), now I don't. Because of the valuable lessons I have learned so far, happiness is my responsibility, not someone else, including my parents. Whether it's a matter of work or where I want to go, especially about a life partner.

I can still forgive easily ... however, I also learned from my experience so far. If someone intends to apologize, then he/she must be able to help me treat the wound because them. But if I am left to treat my own wounds, I will need more time to forgive.

I'm still the old Aqila,  the little changes that I said is just a factor in which I've grown  in accordance with my subconscious. Don't all humans have to grow, either from body or soul or spiritually or psychologically? Indeed, I don't expect everyone to understand about me. Why pretend to understand if it only to please me? I am a woman who is not afraid of being blasphemed or hated. Even I am a woman who is not happy to be praised by anyone except from my own lover.

For me, Every one has their own rights, right? I'm still going to continue to grow, I'm sure of it. And one thing that I will hold to death, I know God loves me.

Why did I start to read and write again like my hobby that I used to do today? I can only answer " it's because of many factors". Are you curious? Hahahaha ... I thought of that. But obviously after l disappeared for a while in commenting about the world of politics and social media, I almost lost nutrition for my brain and heart. My brain needs nutritional intake by reading so that my imagination and my mind get new things. So also the heart, when no one is likely to know about me, other than telling my stories to God I choose to write in any form.

My brain and my heart's energy is drained enough. And it makes me exhausted, because I'm currently still working in a company and doing business together my little friend. Because of that, now reading and writing again is a wise choice in my opinion. Etsss ... you can't protest here. :)

So, here I am. I remain the first Aqila. I didn't change, but I only grew. You might see how I think. And hopefully this can describe the real me.

But there are still many things that people don't know about me. However I try write about who I am, you will not actually be able to see all of me. Maybe that's how a Scorpio woman was created. Always full of mysteries and surprises. ;)

Small part about me. Although I think this will not quite describe who I am. You can imagine about that.

A little Note: If anyone asks if will I go back fighting for justice in politics in cyberspace? I would reply, "Well .. I will be back. For me the truth is still the truth. There is no reason to not defend what I think is right (not things that's favorable for a certain people)." And if anyone asks when was that? I can only explain, only me and God know when it's time for me to go back to cyberspace to fight. Currently, I only need to write things outside of politics and about my feelings alone. I call it "Me Time"

I'm Not QUEEN Again! Thank's to all of you to change me!